I discovered today that I am in an emotional prison! I am locked up in the past and I can’t get out. My inner critic is the judge, jury, guard, and has the authority to let me out. I don’t deserve to be in prison, the people who caused my trauma are the ones thatContinue reading “Emotional Prison”
I used to think that my mental conditions defined who I was! I now know that they are what I have and not who I am. Yes my daily life is a struggle at times and I know I will always have struggles. As I learn more about those struggles they seem to become aContinue reading “You Don’t Define Me”
Take the past out of your present and learn to live again through God and healing! Love, Sunshine (Lisa)
“Pain is excess energy crying out for release” – Gerald Heard
I just thought of this mantra: “Get my past out of my present!” It is easier said than done unfortunately!
Sometimes loving – giving empathy, not trying to fix – people when they are feeling bad is a powerful kind of caring.
When we are hurt, part of us is sad and part of us is mad, and no amount of angering can ever metabolize our sadness.
“Thoughts – just mere thoughts – are as powerful as electric batteries – as good for you as sunlight is, or as bad for you as poison.” by an Unknown Author
“Think it until you make it” – by Stephen Johnson
That which we do not bring to consciousness appears in our life as fate. – Carl Gustav Jung
“The higher the pain number, the more dysfunction is associated with it, both physically and emotionally.” This quote is from the book Managing Pain Before It Manages You – by Margaret A. Caudill
I’m going to welcome 2021. It will have to be better than 2019 and 2020. We have had the wildfires, we have had COVID-19, we have had the pandemic, we have had riots and destruction. There’s not much left that we haven’t had in 2019 and 2020, so let’s pray that this year will notContinue reading “Welcome 2021”
My physical pain is a better today! My emotional pain is still strong. Emotional pain is almost harder for me to deal with than the physical pain. My emotions take over sometimes. It is really hard to shake them most times, because of my flashbacks. My therapist gave me the name of a book heContinue reading “Physical Pain vs Emotional Pain”
I have been having a lot of pain this past week. I think it may be a flare. Although, I did fall on Saturday, so I don’t know for sure if it is a flare or the fall. I am trying to schedule a massage and that is turning into a hassle. I haven’t hadContinue reading “Pain”
My husband got me a new iPad for Christmas! I am so excited! He also got me a pencil that writes on the iPad so I don’t have to type I can just write what I want to say. Maybe it will encourage me to blog more.
It is really hard not to worry or catastrophize or both! Distractions sometimes help me and sometimes it doesn’t. People don’t understand and sometimes I hear oh just let it go or you’re catasrophizing again. If you need someone to talk to that understands I am available just email me through this site.
“You don’t have to stay in a trigger and you don’t have to leave either, just use it as information.” From the book The Body Keeps the Score – by Bessel Van Der Kolk, M.D.
“When the fever subsides I realize I can handle it, but a part of me doubts that I can. The pole to the past is strong; it is the Darkside of my life; and I must well there from time to time. The struggle may also be a way to know that I survive aContinue reading “Fear”
As you gain ownership over your physical sensations, you also begin to be able to tell the difference between past and present. From the Body Keeps the Score – book by Bessel Van Der Kolk, M.D.
From the book One reason traumatic memories become dominant in PTSD is that it is so difficult to feel truly alive right now. When you can’t be fully here you go to the places where you did feel alive even if those places are filled with horror and misery.
Faulty alarm systems that lead to blowups or shutdowns in response to innocuous comments or facial expressions